Hello again! I am back..........
I have tweaked the food intake a bit...and added some carbs only after strenuous exercise. I have also left my grits in my morning breakfast, seeing as I eat breakfast anywhere between 9:00-10:00 pm I think it will be ok.
For now, the other thing I am changing is my stressing out about this. The more I get all worked up and stressed out, the less weight I am going to be able to lose...freaking cortisol sucks! lol...
The other thing I am doing is realizing that in a big way...food does make me happy and that’s not a bad thing. It's not because I was unhappy as a child...not because it was an escape...that developed later. In my life, I love food because food was love in my house. It reminds me of my mother, and how good her kitchen smelled...and how warm and close our dinners were with friends and family. I can't fight that by completely staving off food all together, and punishing myself.
If I am never allowed to eat things I love, I will never be able to diet. For me it is about letting myself have the cheat meal...at the appropriate time...and enjoying it...being able to then go about my regular eating to live. I can't really say I agree with Eat to Live don’t Live to Eat, because I have tried that, and it seems to make me more frustrated and miserable.
So, with my “stress less about this” policy in place...I will try to regulate my eating, while not feeling like I am depriving myself of the things I love.
My main motivation for this weight loss is comfort. I am actually perfectly healthy by all accounts. Many people would not believe that looking at me…they would assume that I must have a whole host of problems wrong with me…but I don’t. No high cholesterol, no high blood pressure, (not even close) no diabetes, nothing that hinders my daily life. My thyroid wasn’t something I brought on with weight gain, it facilitated the weight gain. As long as I stay active and can lose some more weight for the aesthetic happiness I would like to achieve, I will be fine.
That’s all for today….8)
